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IWill 2021-12-31 12:45 - 4 minute read

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Depression feels like existing but WITHOUT yourself. It's a very lonely place 

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You liked to dress up. What happened... Why is your hair so messy...

You don't want to get up and go to work... YOU were so ambitious... What has happened to you...

You are not coming again? Why? You always loved gatherings... What is wrong with you?

Why are you always lying down? Why are you so lazy these days? Please be responsible...

 

 

Everyone would tell me all this... And they were right... I had changed a lot...

I didn't feel like dressing up... I didn't have the energy. 

I didn't want to work on anything... I knew I would fail. I didn't feel like... My heart was filled with pain.

Meeting people didn't interest me anymore... That effort looked meaningless. I was so much in pain that I didn't know how would it help to talk to others 

I didn't want to face people... I had stopped recognizing myself...

I had gone through a lot of pain in the past year... My relationship had gotten really unstable... I was misunderstood, ignored, left to handle my emotions on my own.. I ignored my career to fix this first and I saw myself struggling in no time there too.

 

I felt lonely, less loved, less appreciated, isolated, unsuccessful and my brain kept telling me, how it was all over for me. How I was going to be without love, how my loved one had left me in pain and their priority was never me, while I couldn't think of anyone beyond them...

 

I felt like a failure who because of her emotional issues sacrificed her work too.

I was in a dark place. I wasn't myself... I was existing but not living 

 

I joined IWill therapy at a friend's recommendation. in fact, he booked sessions for me... because I was really denying this too.. And it was in therapy that I knew, all of this had a name "DEPRESSION". I was struggling with severe depression...

 

And the lack of empathy, the apathy around was only making it worse for me...

It was through IWill therapy that I started challenging how I thought about my life. I started learning to put myself first, to not feel ashamed because someone else didn't treat me right... To not run from my career away because of a few setbacks as that would only make things worse.  The therapist helped me speak everything out, my confusions, my doubts, my inhibitions, and one by one we would solve everything, at least solve the mess of thoughts and emotions around it... 

 

She started empathetically pushing me to get back to activities that will make a difference... She never was angry if I couldn't, she was never rude or blaming of, my depression. She was understanding of my setbacks and failures.

And in a few months, I was starting to find myself again, some parts of myself like the person who hopelessly believed anyone, was now not as much a part of me... but self-belief, wanting to smile, trying for self, all of these were back...

 

I started living again, albeit had some hard moments still... Depression is a serious disorder... No matter what causes it, the fact is you can't just get rid of it like that, it increases, gets worse and only damages more...

if you are going through an existential crisis because of depression, if you are let down by yourself or others, if you feel like there is no end to the pain, it could be depression. Seek therapy, seek empathy! YOU deserve to be yourself, your original self! 

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