And this fear of abandonment wasn't something that I had from the start. It developed when I got married. I had just such high hopes of my marriage and our union.
I was suffering already from anxiety but also from trauma of being in a marriage where I was made to feel unneeded.
My therapist helped me to first do things that make me feel happier, wanted. She helped me spend time with myself.
I had a job, I had goals. I had happiness. I didn't take abuse, I didn't feel less. The best thing that happened to me was to get beyond this fear of abandonment! This fear was breaking me, my strength and I am glad I am over it.