Someone who cheers you up even when there is the slightest of pain is no more there.
They are not just there without who you had no life ever... they were what living meant to you.
You break and you just break.
Words of Hope sound so alien and so superficial
I just had practically no life for many months.
I just cried and missed them.
I just felt miserable and broken!
I just felt unreal pain...