I achieved happiness and success on my own. I don't break myself for ignorance, comparisons, and intentional insults anymore 

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I am now doing a job that gives me satisfaction, progress and joy. 

I laugh like no one is watching.

I have friends with who I go to trips and spend goof time with.

I take care of my family and my parents.

I don't cry on anyone's remarks. I respond back with assertion.

I don't cry for ignorance and comparisons. Those who treat me in this way, are not deserving of my attention.

I don't feel bad when someone isolates me. I don't take their hurt.

 

 

I had faced so much in life.

I was a person who believed that everyone is good, kind and loving.

I believed that like my parents give me love, everyone will take care of me, especially people I am doing so much for.

I didn't know there is jealousy, competition to the level that people attack, be toxic, and destroy someone's happiness just to feel less threatened.

 

I was ignored intentionally to make me feel like I am an outsider.

I was always attacked for my personality, as though I was just a misfit.

 

I would be asked to not laugh, not be, not express. I didn't know why there was so much hatred for me.

I would be always compared to others. How I was less. How others did this and that. How I was such a disappointment, all of said it in a way that I get it but it wasn't even explicit.

I would be given cold vibes. I would be made to feel like I was forced on that system. Also if I wanted some time or attention, it would be snubbed as though it was wrong for me to expect anything.

 

I was here to serve alone and 'watch' love that everyone shares and be the last one.

I was so broken. I started feeling like I was less. I was stuck. 

I felt like my life was over.

I couldn't even stop crying.. 

Imagining a life that is happy was beyond tough.

I joined iwill therapy when a friend asked me to.

It was in therapy at IWill that my therapist helped me to see that no matter how unfortunate, these people are responsible for their behavior and no matter how bad i feel, what they want to do, they would still be doing.

But in the same way, I deserved better. I didn't have to let them destroy me. I didn't have to let them define me. I needed to get up, take care of myself, assert, do things that make me happy and take charge of my life.

I was no victim. I was a force.

She helped me make changes to my self, not feel bad on their ignorance but instead have space for people who took care of me.

Rather than their judgments, I had strength to be most successful if I focussed on myself

I healed through IWill therapy and become a force.

People around me started noticing the change in me. They were now trying to act as though they are changing. But I don't care anymore.

I know my self worth and won't allow anyone to damage it again for their pleasure or insecurities.

I am no longer crying for attention.. I don't need someone's validation to feel good about myself.