I didn’t want to live anymore. Here is how I overcame this feeling

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I lost too much in life.

I married a person who had their share of problems and initially ignored me a lot.

In this pain, I let go of my career, I didn’t and couldn’t concentrate on it. And when I realized it, I saw myself chasing a dream that was slipped far away.

Every decision I took in life gave me pain. I never handled my things correctly.

I was childless at 39. I didn’t have anything going for me, as you see for regular people at my age. Not a great work-life, a relationship that was now ok but had suffered too many heartbreaks, a career that was nonexistent and a self that didn’t have the right Will or mindset to try.

Every night I would think tomorrow I’ll make a better day.

 

 And every morning I would wake up confused, just wanting to pass the day somehow, confused, in brain fog, restless and with an impending sense of doom, of something has gone wrong within the headspace. 

 

I don’t want to live anymore... I was tired of my broken life, I was tired of my painful existence, I was insecure looking at the world. Everyone had a better life than me. 

 

My husband asked me to join therapy at iwill. Initially I didn’t even feel like trying this....  but then when I got an opportunity to speak my hurt, to say things I felt, I opened up...

 

In therapy she helped me to let go, to not see my life as wasted..I had heard this many times that every day is a new day, she helped me understand, change myself to believe it. 

 

It’s been 6 months in therapy, she has helped me design my work life, my life in a way that I can get the motivation I need, the good feeling I need to keep going.. I have worked on my relationship, have tried to make it happy and fulfilling! I have worked on my self and stopped blaming myself all the time!

 

I have learned to let go, to not feel I am worse or not good... I have learned to trust myself and my life!!

And with this faith back in me, I want to live... actually I want to make up for all that I lost...

 

I was in depression. If you are dealing with an emotional crisis that has impacted all aspects of your life, it’s highly recommended that you must seek professional help. Don’t let your mind convince you that it’s you.

 

 It is depression talking and you can quiet it and claim your life again!