IWill blogs
My husband again didn't sit with me when he came back. As usual, I was not his priority. His family was more important
But today, I didn't feel bad about this. I didn't feel empty because of this.
I didn't cry or fight... I picked up my laptop, started working, had a good meal, and prioritized myself!
My husband as always was always thinking of others, never for me.
But it didn't hurt anymore. I was thinking of myself!
My husband again in the last week canceled a plan with me. Rather than feeling dejected, hopeless, lonely, I went ahead with my own plan with my friends.
I wanted his time, attention, love, admiration but he never saw me as his first family. He would ignore me, make me feel secondary, never show me affection, always treat me as though loving me was against his family, it would somehow make him "anti-family" or even "wrong". This was also because his family and everyone else around too had always kept their spouses secondary and a son was only supposed to be for his family, while a wife's role was to serve, have children, work for others' happiness. But I wasn't this person... I wasn't someone who had ever been without love, respect... I had huge dreams from my marriage and really had made my husband, the center of my life...