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I would be expected to be ok with things happening at my home and me not going, as though my parents problems were not my own.
Even if my heart would ache a lot for my family, they would try and convince me that it is wrong.
If he would get angry, expectation was for me to keep the peace so that he doesn't loose his cool further... like my anger didn't matter... like my pain didn't matter.
Keep quiet when someone in his family speaks negatively. Don't be rude while they Destroy MY self worth! They say things about my looks, upbringing, my things in a way that break me! And I must listen!Â
Everything that was being expected of me was at my expense.
I was in deep depression with a career that could grow but me restricting it to please others, my emotions breaking and dying as i wanted to care for my parents but it was bad!Â
I was broken! I joined IWill therapy as I was going in deep depression. It was in therapy that my therapist helped me see i was as importantÂ
That marriage is a companionship where two people come together to provide comfort to each other.Â
No one is less. She also helped me reconnect with my friends, my loved ones to gain strength.
I started taking no jokes on my self-respect.