It wasn't just the lack of love in this house that broke me. It was the clear blatant display of love for everyone, care for everyone but for me.
I felt like a sub-human.
I would feel angst, pain, hurt, loneliness, resentment, emptiness, frustration and discrimination, all these heavy emotions all day long and
I joined IWill therapy and it was here that my therapist helped me first to just focus on self, stop the cycle of abuse, ask for things, speak up, call out the hypocrisy and call our discrimination.
Once he was in IWill couple therapy, my therapist helped him see how he would feel, if all this was happening to him, suddenly ignored by me and in my home feeling wasted, ignored and everyone else has plan and love, just not him.
He became a man that a woman deserves.
The heartbreak started healing but it takes time.
I am still in therapy.. trauma takes time to heal. I took the right decision of taking help at the right time.