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IWill 2022-11-04 01:51 - 4 minute read

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My own loved ones don't understand my depression and blamed me for my health. Worst pain 

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You drain everyone... you are always crying... it's so tough being around you 

Stop all this drama... You are doing this for attention 

Oh you dont want to go there because you want to embarrass me... its all about you...

You are on bed all day, holding your phone and scrolling things, is this depression or your way to not do anything. 

I cant talk to you. You have nothing good to say.. 

Your depression is an excuse to blame all your weakneses on others... 

This was my loved one and people around me blaming me, making me miserable during worst phase of my life, during depression...

I had been through a lot. Suddenly I was in an environment where no one cared about me as much, where I was usually expected to do, not given love...

 

And in this same time, my loved one was asked to almost ignore me... And as if worst was to happen to me, this had a toll on my career and I couldnt even work. I felt like a failure, like there was complete darkness on my life, like I was stuck. 

 

And when I tried talking about this, I was blamed for being too demanding, for being non adjusting, for being not like the ideal that everyone deserved.

 

I was blamed for my tears and my pains... 

I was isolated more and more and I was blamed for not being happy, not pampering others....

It was as if my depression, me, nothing was visible...

I was invisible and my illness was a joke to everyone...

 

I had never expected to be treated this way, to be made to feel guilty for being in pain, for being blamed for crying when being hurt, for being said worse things when I needed comfort.

I felt like I should stop existing.

I joined IWill therapy. 

It was here that my therapist for the first time empathised with me, understood me, my pain, my anxieties, the shock I had been through and its impact on me.

She then helped me focus on how I had myself, how writing my life off for other's behavior was not at all a good thing.

She helped me focus on self, no matter what was going on... take time, cry, speak to her, express but at the same time, also work back on career, on self, on eating right, on prioritising.... She gave me the empathy, the understanding that made me get energy to refocus on myself...

As IWill therapy extended, I started focussing on my life again, I would assert for myself, focus on my job, I would also not cry to people who couldnt see my worth, who didnt understand me... But at the same time, I wil not let them belittle me or make me feel unwanted...

 

My loved one saying change in me, started sensing may be that they were wrong, they tried to warm up to me, but then, I decided to take my time.. They had to learn to see what was wrong with their behavior...

 

Its worst thing to make your loved one feel guilty, isolated and lonely for facing depression.

Its worst to treat their expectations of love as being selfish while you expect them to always be their for you and your needs.

Its worst to be so hypcritical, its worst to be so indifferent and insensitive to your own loved one...

I am glad I am focussing on rebuilding my self, my career, being with people who love me, healing myself, not being available for anyone to belittle me while they are such big hypocrites.

Meena 

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