The moment I Shared, I had a promotion, there was a silence and the next thing said was, finally, it took so many years for you to get promotion. Good. Hope your financial problems will get better. How much is the salary hike? Is it significant?
And i was stunned. As I shared something that made me happy after so long, I was reminded instantly of my past failures, of my existing financial situation and my weaknesses.
I was expecting a pat om the back, some happiness but my win was turned into a loss and shame instantly.
And this was not one time.
The moment someone appreciated me, topic would be changed to something else.
The moment I was the center of attention, something would happen, just to divert the attention away.
If I did something nice, no praises would be made, no appreciation, no one would even express joy, of these people.
It was this toxic and it was breaking my spirits internally. It was making me always feel hopeless about myself.