I had a very bitter divorce. Everyone around me wanted me to not divorce and be in a toxic relationship as I had a child and no one would marry me. That my life would be over here itself.
And to a large part. That's how I felt for myself for many months and years. Coming out from an absolutely toxic marriage, where I was treated like an assistant to my husband and his family, where my wishes, needs, and rest didn't matter. I had to be 24*7 involved in serving others and also listen to toxicity when they wanted to lash out at someone.
I joined IWill therapy and my therapist helped me see how I was just 30. I had a life ahead of me and while my experiences needed a lot of healing, a lot I had to look forward to in life, I deserved much better and there was a life ahead of me.
Friends and everyone around me would always send me empowering messages about how I could be single and do great. And yes that is one aspect but for me, I needed a companion and this judgment that wanting a companion was somehow weak or that I wouldn't find anyone because I have a son of 2 years old and he would be neglected in my new marriage would bother and pain me.
I continued rebuilding my life, I was also in therapeutic support at IWill throughout and I finally found someone. He was just my age and had been through a divorce himself. I would have happily accepted his child but he didn't have one. He did accept mine.
He would love my son like his own son. It was a dream. I was happy. There was love and there was value in our relationship.
I finally got married to him. It's been 6 months and it's been nothing less than beautiful. He is a great man. He is kind, secure, and is loving towards me and my child. He helps us, he protects us as I protect him. He loves me as I love him. I needed a companion and I found one. A good one. One that I wanted for the very first time.
I deserved a companion and I have found one. The Prince Charming and My Fairy Tale has been completed. I feel blessed and I do not want to be judged for wanting to have a man who loves me like I want to be