The men had to be always ignoring their wife! And the wife was supposed to just do things that other already established women in the home wanted!
I never thought such thought processes exist in today! But I, unfortunately, got stuck with them!
I felt isolated! I felt lonely, less, I felt like I was never going to be ok now! I felt the need to cry, to beg but to have my husband’s love anyhow! I felt like my whole life was meaningless now! The bad behavior, the ignorance, the attitude like he had love for everyone but for me, broke me down!
And I was so weak that I didn’t feel l could survive outside this marriage, that divorce was an option!
I joined IWill therapy on the suggestion of a friend! It was in therapy that I was helped to feel worthy despite what was happening to me! I could get the clarity that it’s not me, it’s them! That I had to take my life in my control! My therapist helped me step by step heal myself and focus on things I should be doing, not to cry or be sitting there for people’s judgments, to assert and stand up for myself when I was made to feel like I didn’t matter!
Since I have started prioritizing myself, and being happier, and saying and asserting what I am going through, he has started really changing and supporting me too sometimes... Though he has not been in therapy... What is in store for our relationship is something I am still taking time on!