Worst pain is to be made to feel unneeded and forgotten by someone you loved a lot 

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He had so much time for me earlier. But now with people around and his own work, he had no time for me!

He would not sit with me. He would be busy as though he didn’t need me! 

I would sit alone, wait all day long. When he would be back, he would still talk to others, be worried about his work as though I didn’t exist. 

 

I loved him a lot and for me, time with him was my happiness. I too had a family; my career dreams but this relationship meant more to be! But he wouldn’t care at all.

He would make trips on weekend with other family members, business, friends, work and I would be stuck alone, wondering if I ever meant anything to him! 

 

I was really suffering a lot. I begged him, I cried, I fought but he would always be so cold. He would blame me that I was “overreacting” or that I was “being childish”, or that he had other things in life too. 

It used to hurt remembering how much he promised to be with me. How he had time for me when this relationship was new. How he promised that he would do anything for my happiness. And today I was seeing him ignoring me, getting irritated if I asked for his Time. 

I was so depressed that I would cry all day long. I would feel heartbroken. All day just these thoughts and loneliness would cloud my mind.

The depression was drowning me! My life was almost over. I just stayed in, kept crying, felt miserable. 

I started seeking therapy to ease my pain. Therapy helped me a lot.

First, it helped me by making me do things that could bring happiness to me. My therapist would encourage me so much constantly to read, to work, to meet friends and family who loved me, to spend time with them! 

 

And then she helped me put my self-worth above everything else. I didn’t have to take any decisions.

The only decision I needed to take was to not sit and wait for someone to have time for me! I had to work, stay happy, stay and take care of myself!

I had stopped eating. I had stopped looking after myself! And I deserved better than this! 

 

IWill Therapy helped me to not judge my self-worth basis one person’s changed behavior. 

I no longer sit and cry and feel unlucky because he doesn’t have time for me! I speak, I assert but I won't ruin my day. 

I just came back from a trip. I deserve happiness too. My life is larger than someone’s unavailability. 

Therapy taught me to my first partner, love, care, and not feel pain based on someone else’s action. This freedom today that I have from emotional hurt is EVERYTHING!